Friday Funny

So I didn't make it to body pump wed...well I made it there, but when I went to change I realized I didn't have any pants :( what I thought were black workout capris was actually a t shirt.

yesterday I started the Desk to 5K program at work. It was a mile on the track (5 laps). I did three laps walking an two "running". I downloaded a new app to help with the runs, it's called Zombie Run. It's fun, it tells a story of being in a compound that is surrounded by zombies. You ahve to go out and gather supplies. if the zombies get close you have to run to get away or lose what you have collected. you use your supplies to build up your compound...so it's a game as well. hopefully it will encourage me to keep running.

after the mile I was going to go to the Hip Hop zumba class, but the instructor never showed up. Instead of leaving I hopped on the elliptical machine and did 20 minutes.

today is going to be light on exercise. we are going to a minor league baseball game after work, so I won't get in a workout today. there's always tomorrow right?

UGH

Weighed in this morning at 237.2

Wrong direction. Down, but not out...going to Body Pump today, haven't been since I burned my hand. Hand is much better, going to be a heck of a scar for a while, but blister never popped and things are healing nicely.

I did make an appointment for another fill, but couldn't get in until sept 11. That gives me a couple of weeks to get back into good eating habits (fingers crossed) before I see them.

New Goal!

I've been so focused on the 100 pound mark and that freaks me out for some reason. So instead of 100 pounds right now I want to lose 20 pounds. that's what I will focus on, just 20 pounds. Much more doable than 100 (even though I've already gotten to the 90+ mark). Hopefully this will help me get over this slump I've been in. I'm starting from last weeks weight of 235.4, but i'll be counting up not down, if that makes sense. Hopefully tomorrow the pounds lost number will go up, fingers crossed.

Eating better will also help that.... still need to work on that. Today I've had two candy bars. One at breakfast on one in the afternoon. UGH!!! Maybe tomorrow will be better.

weigh in Wednesday

Todays weight: 235.4

Moving in the right direction. Wish it was more, but still eat like crap in the last week. Much better than the week before, but still too much crap!

Haven't been able to go to Body Pump this week since I burned my hand. There's a reason they put that "Surface Hot" light on the stove. It means Hey STUPID DON'T PUT YOUR HAND ON THE BURNER!!!!!!!!! Wasn't thinking and went to wipe up a spill after my husband cooked breakfast Sunday morning. It's not too bad but I have a decent sized blister on the base of my thumb. Trying to keep the blister from popping so no Body Pump this week. Migraine yesterday so no Zumba either. Plan is to go to zumba on thursday, not sure what to do fri...

I signed up for my first 5K of the fall. I also signed up for a 5K training that the gym at my work is doing. I think that starts next week. I need to get back to actually running. Maybe i'll start the Ease into 5K on Friday.

Self Sabotage

This weeks weigh in:  236

Yep, you read that right up 3 pounds from last week... must be water wight or increased muscle right?


NOPE, it's real.  Want to know how I know?  Because this is just some of the crap I've been eating in the last week:

Ice cream, at least 4 out of the past 7 days (and one occasion twice in one day)
Peanut M&Ms (at least two different times)
Kit Kat Minis (at least two times)
Pastry...three of them in one sitting!!!
movie popcorn...so much more than I needed
cereal, lot's of cereal
coffee cake (4 days out of 7)


I know better, so why do I eat it... cause I want to! It tastes good!


It's like when I got close to 100 pounds I gave myself permission to eat anything and everything, and once I hit 100 pounds lost (barely) all bets were lost.

I've done this before, lost weight gotten to a goal and then started back down the path of gaining.  I don't want that to happen again, but how do I stop it?

I know rationally just don't eat the crap, or eat in moderation, but I seem to have lost that ability.  I'm hungry!!!

Probably time for a fill, but sometimes it's not just physical hunger, but just cause something appeals to me. How do you break that cycle once you've started?  I keep telling myself I will be better, but just doesn't work.

I think part of my problem is exercise.  I have been working out  like a fiend:

monday: body pump
Tues: Zumba
Wed: derby lite
Thurs: zumba
Friday: body pump
Sat/sunday: long walks with the dogs, some skating

exercise is good, but in my case I use it as an excuse to eat more... In my mind I deserve that candy or ice cream because I worked out hard.

so my plan is this:

Call for a fill, not a big one, but just a little to top me off.  maybe help with the physical hunger I'm feeling between meals.

Cut back on exercise...I know to some people this may be counter intuitive, but hopefully I can break the cycle of working out to eat.  my new plan is this:

   Mon or Fri: Body Pump     
   Tues or Thurs: Zumba
   Sat or Sun: Zumba
   Random days: skating (Derby Lite is on break for a month, doesn't start back up until September :(.       So I'll just be going to the rink for free skate hopefully once a week).

How to stop the mindless eating...that's what I need help with.

Trying to get back on the bandwagon

As you can see from me ticker my weight has gone up a little...only 5 pounds since my lowest, but it's taken back down below the 100 pounds lost mark.

Not sure what's going on, it's been more that a year and my loss has been amazing, it's just....blah...


I'm eating things I never did before...pastry, coffee cake, more ice cream than I care to admit...

Self sabotage much?  It's like when I hit 100 pounds all the rules went out the window. Guess what when you eat crap you gain weight, you'd think I'd have that figured out by now huh?

The one thing I've had in my favor is my exercise.  I've been a workout fiend.  I think I was giving myself permission to eat more because of the workouts.

So onward and downward I go.  I need to get back to blogging and logging my food in MFP.  Accountability, that's what I need.  I need to go back the basics, I can do this just have to get back on the bandwagon.

How's everyone else doing?  What have you done to encourage yourself?

Anyone know if any newbie bandster bloggers?  I need to get some revived band love and I think newbies are great for that.  So if you know of any new bandsters or soon to be bandsters let me know so I can follow along.