Self Sabotage

This weeks weigh in:  236

Yep, you read that right up 3 pounds from last week... must be water wight or increased muscle right?


NOPE, it's real.  Want to know how I know?  Because this is just some of the crap I've been eating in the last week:

Ice cream, at least 4 out of the past 7 days (and one occasion twice in one day)
Peanut M&Ms (at least two different times)
Kit Kat Minis (at least two times)
Pastry...three of them in one sitting!!!
movie popcorn...so much more than I needed
cereal, lot's of cereal
coffee cake (4 days out of 7)


I know better, so why do I eat it... cause I want to! It tastes good!


It's like when I got close to 100 pounds I gave myself permission to eat anything and everything, and once I hit 100 pounds lost (barely) all bets were lost.

I've done this before, lost weight gotten to a goal and then started back down the path of gaining.  I don't want that to happen again, but how do I stop it?

I know rationally just don't eat the crap, or eat in moderation, but I seem to have lost that ability.  I'm hungry!!!

Probably time for a fill, but sometimes it's not just physical hunger, but just cause something appeals to me. How do you break that cycle once you've started?  I keep telling myself I will be better, but just doesn't work.

I think part of my problem is exercise.  I have been working out  like a fiend:

monday: body pump
Tues: Zumba
Wed: derby lite
Thurs: zumba
Friday: body pump
Sat/sunday: long walks with the dogs, some skating

exercise is good, but in my case I use it as an excuse to eat more... In my mind I deserve that candy or ice cream because I worked out hard.

so my plan is this:

Call for a fill, not a big one, but just a little to top me off.  maybe help with the physical hunger I'm feeling between meals.

Cut back on exercise...I know to some people this may be counter intuitive, but hopefully I can break the cycle of working out to eat.  my new plan is this:

   Mon or Fri: Body Pump     
   Tues or Thurs: Zumba
   Sat or Sun: Zumba
   Random days: skating (Derby Lite is on break for a month, doesn't start back up until September :(.       So I'll just be going to the rink for free skate hopefully once a week).

How to stop the mindless eating...that's what I need help with.