So after my pity party I had yesterday I did some thinking...scary I know. Yes I ate the apple strudel, but was it the end of the world? No. Is it going to derail my journey? Absolutely not! I'm human, we all are. No one is perfect, least of all me. I can't beat myself up for being human. I went cold turkey on carbs and I'm surprised I lasted as long as I did (well except for that one instance with the donut, but I bet if I had that now I would eat the whole thing).
I have been trying to follow my doctors instructions to the letter. I've done well, but it's getting hard. I'm hungry and I have no restriction. (That strudel went down just fine). I know I'm still in the healing phase, and according to my surgeon durin this phase it's 2oz meals 3 times a day plus 2-3 protein shakes.
The problem is I'm 5 weeks out and I need to eat more that 700 calories a day. Even with the 440 clories from the strudel I only hit 958 calories. So without that strudel I would have been at 518. YIKES!
Yes in the begining it was great, no hunger and weight dropping off. However it makes no sense to me that this week I can only eat 2oz and by next week I can have up to a cup of food per meal. Can we get a little bit of transition?
So here's my plan: follow the prescribed plan as much as I can, but I'm not going to beat myself up. Soon the prescibed plan won't be as rigid, and what will happen then? I need to re-train my brain into not focusing on food. The way to do that isn't from depriving myself of things that I want. That will only make me want it even more, so I will get into a situation where I have to have it. The lesson I have to teach myself is moderation. That's why I got this band in the first place. I still want to be able to eat, just eat less.
So onto my next stage of this journey. Never thought it was going to be easy, but I will do this.
Oh and I had 2 oz of turkey meatball for dinner instead of the 1 I'm supposed to have. I'm such a rebel ;)