I've been doing so well, or so I thought. Don't you just love it when you start feeling self righteous about how this isn't really bad, and you don't know why other people are struggling...and then a big dose of reality smacks you up side the head? This week is hunger is just kicking my butt. I just want to eat...everything and anything.
I've been following my doctor's/nutritionist's plan and it has worked well for me, until this week. I've been tracking my food on MyFitnessPal, and I've been amazed that I've only been eating 700-800 calories a day and NOT feeling hungry. It's been great, and I thought I had it all figured out. Little did I know.
Today I gave into temptation. I was so hungry (real or head hunger I haven't figured out yet) I had to have something. I started fixating on the coffee shop downstairs that sells these amazing apple strudel. I did resist until after lunch and then told myself I would only have a tiny bite. Well that 1 bite turned into 1/4 of it, which turned into 1/2, then that ugly voice in my head said " you might as well it the whole thing" so that's what I did.
Now I want to puke. Not literally, I didn't get stuck, PB or anything. No restriction has it's benefits I guess. I just feel like I've failed. My first real test and I got a big old F-.