Thursday, June 21, 2012

Feel Like Puking

I've been doing so well, or so I thought. Don't you just love it when you start feeling self righteous about how this isn't really bad, and you don't know why other people are struggling...and then a big dose of reality smacks you up side the head? This week is hunger is just kicking my butt.  I just want to eat...everything and anything.  


I've been following my doctor's/nutritionist's plan and it has worked well for me, until this week.  I've been tracking my food on MyFitnessPal, and I've been amazed that I've only been eating 700-800 calories a day and NOT feeling hungry.  It's been great, and I thought I had it all figured out.  Little did I know.


Today I gave into temptation.  I was so hungry (real or head hunger I haven't figured out yet) I had to have something.  I started fixating on the coffee shop downstairs that sells these amazing apple strudel.  I did resist until after lunch and then told myself I would only have a tiny bite.  Well that 1 bite turned into 1/4 of it, which turned into 1/2, then that ugly voice in my head said " you might as well it the whole thing"  so that's what I did.


Now I want to puke.  Not literally, I didn't get stuck, PB or anything.  No restriction has it's benefits I guess. I just feel like I've failed.  My first real test and I got a big old F-.  


4 comments:

  1. Hey now none of that! Looks like we got banded around the same time, I was May 23rd....so anyway i'm down about 21 lbs too! which is great. I also am starved and have been since June12th! I need a fill I believe, because I went from eating 900 calores per day to 1300 overnight. I have been at 1300 -1450 calories now for almost over a week. So dont kill your self over an apple struddle cake.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. How do you know how many calories you are to eat in a day?

      Delete
  2. First what does PB stand for?

    Secondly, I'm sorry. We are ALL only human! Hang in there!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. PB = Productive Burp - What apparently happens if you eat to fast, to big a bite, don't chew enough, or just eat something that doesn't "like" your band. I haven't had any actual experience yet (since I have no fills yet, and therefore no real restriction) but it is similiar to, but not vomiting. It doesn't come up fully from the stomach, but gets stuck at the band and then comes back up... usually with a big giant ball of mucus. Ewww....

      Delete